Friday came with high hopes for the weekend. The weather was beautiful, my heart full of promise. And Friday came out fine. Last night, I shot for the first time in over a month--the girl with the Betty Davis eyes. She is not very good about communicating (and I am), and so we had bickered and quarreled over the last month. I didn't really care if she came or not, but she did. And oh, wow! She looked amazing. Last time she came, I thought she was probably a drug addict. Her skin was not toned, her body soft, her gut too big, etc.
"What the hell?" I cried when I saw her. "You look great!"
"Thanks. I've been working out."
She changed her diet, began running and going to the gym. She looked like a new girl. She was happier and more confident in the studio. I felt like I was stealing something. '
"I'm going to lose more weight," she said. "See me in a month."
I have sent a couple models to a modeling agency that is good. The girl in today's pic was signed immediately. She is in Miami this weekend, NYC next month, then L.A. and Milan. Oh. . . she doesn't write me any more.
But I will send the girl with the eyes there, too, soon. Until then (before she quits coming also), I will make more pictures with her.
I have a great eye for talent. They should be paying me.
I came home from the shoot and downloaded the pictures and was jacked to the ceiling. It was early, but a couple of whiskeys and some email and I was ready for bed.
I woke at midnight. One-thirty. Three. Four. At six, I decided to get up.
I feel like poop.
The weekend will not be what I had in mind. I wanted to feel like a kid and go play. I feel like someone who is getting over the flu instead. The morning is muggy and cloudy. The weekend has lost its shine.
But there are pictures to look forward to. There is that, at least. And perhaps a nap.
She wants to lose more weight???
ReplyDeleteAnd she barely has any weight to start with, oh my god, the poor thing.
This girl, too, so skinny, it almost hurts my eyes on some of the photos.
Shouldn't you send them to a shrink instead of to agencies?
You know, so that they would be healthy when they arrive in their twenties instead of very sick and rich... IF they survive.
This is a very beautiful photo though, great pose!
And I love the dress, I had exactly the same, thick satin, an antique, black with gold details.
One of my boyfriends ripped it apart....
I hate him even more for that than for ripping me apart...
Yes, I did try the shrink myself... No use...
See you!
XXX
Should I say fat? Being skinny is healthy. Studies done on old Vietnam POWs who were starved practically to death showed they lived longer, healthier lives after their release than the general population. Why do people think it is bad when girls want to eat less, when they cut out deserts and bread and processed foods? I wish I would.
ReplyDeleteBoyfriends suck and shrinks help themselves to your money. And God never talks to me in an understandable language. That is why we have art.
Skinny is okay, and yes, even healthy.
ReplyDeleteBut, do you know how many anorectic girls die???
And even if they get "better", they keep having problems with it whole their lives.
I have this young and super beautiful friend who became an anorectic while working as a model in Paris between her 16 and 19, she's in her twenties now and still struggling every day. It's so tragic. She is this super talented photographer, too, I admire her a lot. But, she can't really move on with her life, still because of this anorexia.
Eating less, or drastic changes in diet are dangerous for girls at that age.
And it rarely helps them becoming more confident, on the contrary.
But, I know, you aren't their daddy, or... grandpa...or great grandpa...
:-P
I think it's chocking that with all the knowledge there is about it now, young girls and women are still being encouraged to become skinnier and skinnier.
But that's not your fault either of course, even when you are a fan...
Shocking. It's shocking.
ReplyDeleteShit.