Bad news. Looks like I am going to have to sit out the revolution. Had a doctor's appointment this morning. I will need to have some surgery in the coming days and then a fairly long recovery it appears. I can't seem to catch a break. Indeed, I have reached my breaking point. And since I go on some powerful antibiotics tonight, it looks like my drinking days are over for awhile. I won't have the bottle to help me cope.
I'm kind of bummed.
Life was so much more fun when I was going to break hearts and live forever.
Such is a fool's life.
I'll know more on Thursday when I see the surgeon.
Selavy.
I am trying to get back into reading shape. In grad school, I used to read two or three novels a week. Closely. I mean, I had to pay attention, take notes, etc. That was in addition to the critical articles and handouts. I haven't read like that for a long time now. It has been taking me weeks to finish any novel I start. But I have a stack of books I'm about to tackle. Some are things I need to read again. They aren't called "classics" just because they're old, as they saying goes.
I threw away a lot of my grad school material when I left the factory, but that's o.k. There is plenty of new scholarship to read and either absorb or reject. My own seemed musty anyway.
I remember standing on that stretch of road beside the gray Atlantic on the recently closed but still restricted Naval Base on Key West. I was staying on a sailboat at dock there. This was taken on New Year's Day. I'd spent New Year's Eve with some people I knew, business owners and drug dealers from around the country, drinking expensive liquors and eschewing the endless lines of cocaine that stretched across multiple tables. We ate at an upscale restaurant that overlooked the ocean. A few tables away was the chief of police and his party. At another table was the fire chief. I can barely remember what happened after dinner, though I do know that the chief of police and the fire chief both disappeared with a huge stash of confiscated drugs. This was all happening during the Cuban Flotilla. One of my friends, a Mayoral candidate, got boarded by the Coast Guard in his beautiful wooden sailboat on his way back from Jamaica. They were looking for Cubans. That isn't what they found. These were the Reagan years. His lawyers pushed things down the road for awhile, but eventually he went to prison.
Me? I was an observer of all things. I was thrilled by the danger and adventure and expensive bravado these "characters" evoked. I was but a naif, a wide-eyed observer allowed a peek behind the curtain. I was weighing my possibilities.
Oh, yea. . . that is what I remember, if you care to believe me. . . I was cool like that.
Me too!
ReplyDeleteI’ll just leave that for reader interpretation. 🧐
I just received this book yesterday:
https://www.amazon.com/Three-Women-Lisa-Taddeo/dp/1451642296
I thought it interesting that at least two of the reviewers mentioned “In Cold Blood” in their reviews of the book. We shall see.
I think I am pretty up on desire and women but since I’ve been considering writing some shit down myself - I thought I’d have a look. I forgot how I found it. I’ll keep you posted. I was too tired to read much of just the necessary news last night. (He is still President and all his supporters in the insurrection and treasonous cronies are still In power forging the country’s future).
Hey! You only have one shoe. And really short shorts. 🙈
Cuba. Terrorists ya know. Also. Supreme Court snuck in some little abortion pill restrictions yesterday. I’m sure we, who believe the government should stay out of a woman’s reproductive rights, can send a love note to, not only the old boys club but your Girl, Amy, as well.
I was sure hoping you two had a shot. A good ass fucking and she would be singing “I am woman.” Oh. That’s not too nice is it. I was/am pissed. About M Garland . And I just got a blurb McConnell won’t reconvene impeachment till after the Mob kills some more folks.
People sure have a lot of ways disappoint us naive idiots.
ReplyDeleteI've gotten back on my Path. It took some weed, hooting with my Bae. Standing out in the cold air - breathing in and out - stretching my hands over my head - bending. Smelling the compost in the garden. Feeling some mud.
Thinking about the Founding Fathers.
Ok especially Thomas Jefferson - what a brainiac hotty - of course with issues. All of you. But yeah, really, they were just hanging around - bopping between Boston, Philadelphia, Virginia, - those 13 Colonies - making up the rules for how to be a new country.
I do not wish to be a feeder fish in the Reality TV Show Ratings.
I've been doing so good with Life. Exercise Yoga Deep Stretching. Sure, sure, alcohol and weed too. Extra Strength Tylenol (regular and PM). Whatever.
But the Big Ones still whip me up. Take me off my balance. Those would be Justice. That One. Hypocrisy. That One Too.
They are still worth fighting for. Worth getting angry about when denigrated. Defiled. Misunderstood.
Man. That Capitol thing was really, really, really bad. It was about as Ugly as I've seen Americans being to America in Real Time.
I'm really angry he's still President. At the Republican Fuck Heads who think what happened - is like what? Not too bad?
I'm worried about the Extremist feeding ground the world wide web is.
A bunch more things. But I don't want to let it consume me anymore. I'm getting all wrenched up - I'm thinking of getting a massage. I would never really but man do I WANT ONE SO BAD. I might get a vaccine in like 2023 or something.
Night. x
ReplyDeletefighting for and against that should say. Equality is not Equity.
Hope. That's something that could get sucked right out of you if you don't remind yourself what what is available that is Good.