I didn't get flowers for my mother. I got us burgers instead. Valentine Hamburgers from BurgerFi. Nothing says Hallmark better than that.
This week is a difficult one. I am not looking forward to it. If everything turns out fine, however, I will be floating a little freer. That is what I say, but it seems there are always more stumbling blocks than there once were. It takes more effort to get from here to there, wherever "there" is. I am acutely aware, however, of "here."
I am all nerves and no thought today, so I won't try. The picture is cute, I think. House porn. Have at it.
ReplyDeleteHope you are relaxing some. Breathe.
You need someone fingering your hair. Get to the Beautician fast. It will be lovely. Tell her you want an extra scalp massage on the conditoning end. I'm sure she does that for you anyway. I would certainly as a purveyor of pleasure.
Whatever it is --- you'll be okay. I just know it.
I'm going to work on finishing up the "Whore in Us All" essay. I have to get to bed early - tomorrow is Tuesday.
I fucked something up at the office - well not really - but you know how some people are - they have to rile things up - and that Practitioner - she's easy to rile she is in a constant state.
She's just imported her 6th dog from the Mother Country. Whatever. I am prepared to face her wrath. For I am only a human - far from perfect and certainly intended her no harm in my oversight. I shall enter the morning meeting with a serene sense of being.
Smile and acknowledge the error of my ways and endeavor to not repeat. (Something that wasn't even possible in the first place due to password protections).
It's all good. I'm older than her, had a wizard LiPo as a best friend for many years. Other good teachers.
You take from people the Good they offer up. And if you see it is Good for them - it brings them a sense of well-being - you adopt it into your own life. Or try.
We can never be as good as our Teachers. But we can try.
Anyway.
It's old Florida and adorable. I hope it doesn't get knocked down. That porch. And shutters. Did you know that in Oak Bluffs, on the Vineyard, you were there yes? NVM. They have the Christian Camp cottages.
https://www.mvcma.org/cottage-museum--shop.html
We have a Christian Camp here in town. Craigville. It's delightful. It has the "Tabernacle" where one worships outside in the Summer. It's where Tennis Friend Lisa teaches in the summer.
I'm drifting.
So. Be well, C.S. Lie flat and breathe deep. Let your spine crack into the floor.
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